this christmas was bittersweet. grama is deteriorating, as can only be expected at 93 in a nursing home. she can’t hear for us to communicate with her, but she sure can make assumptions, get ornary, and say hurtful things. she cut my christmas with the family short because of her demands to go home. still working through that.
on the thankfulness side, preparing for christmas was as usual. i was determined to do something crafty and touching for my family. this year i decided on handmade ornaments made from the old photos i finally sorted through this year after we moved grama out of her apt. i finished all of them at right about noon on christmas day, but i really enjoyed those, they turned out nice. i also did some cooking and baking and that was surprisingly fun and fulfilling for me! aside from my lack of control on my own “sampling” i really enjoyed the cooking, using the gadgets i’ve inherited from my aunt, and trying new things! super fun.
the morning of christmas i decided to dress up, and i did the last minute sewing alterations on a skirt i’ve been working on. it took all of 5 minutes to turn it into a skirt i want to wear, i’d been putting it off for a month.
altogether, i got in touch with my happy homemaker side and i really enjoyed it. i’m grateful for the opportunity to try new things and realize i like them, they don’t have to be perfect. i think it’s really the perfection on the first try that has gotten to me and had me throw in the towel and run to stores at the last minute to get presents. experimenting is great. plus i don’t believe in failure – i always try to tweak something or try it a different way before i give up, so this was a great exercise in experimentation and fixing, and everything turned out lovely!