Lately I’m dreaming about people from my past. I run into then randomly, realizing it’s the present day, feeling like I have to change myself and adjust to letting them back in my life. Last night it was my ex boyfriend. I knew we were broken up but he was being lovey and acting like nothing changed. I was caught up in that feeling of togetherness and wondering what kind of sacrifices I would need to make it work. But I did realize it was done. I consistently dream about an old friend and get that same sacrificial sense, scheming to make it work. I think in both cases I really miss pieces of the relationship and know there’s no going back. It strikes me everyone how quick I am in the dream to sacrifice what I’ve learned.
In waking life I know better.